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I dont know what to do anymore. i constantly think about bloodbath myself or thinking that someone should. i am recovering from bulimia and have tried to kill myself back. my family is hit or miss. i thrive from the few instances that come that are good...but partially of them are awful. im starting to think its a waste to try and take home good times happen if theyre only just going to be shot down the next minute. i dont feel approaching i really have a purpose anymore. im just lost and dont hold a clue on what to do.
Pour yourself into a cause that isn't in the region of you.
I don't mean that in a critical or parsimonious way at all. I freshly am saying that if you really can find something in your existence that has meaning, it give you a different perspective.
ive been contained by your exact position so i know how hard it is but DONT kill yourself cuz that really wont solve anything n apparently suicides turn to hell! plus if you try to kill yourself but live youll feel even worse, ive tried 11 times n every time psyche be lying in hospital for 3 days thinking bout how id bungled at failing!
glad to hear youre recovering from bulimia cuz its not a nice thing to live with!
are you getting counselling or anything to comfort you in your recovery? if youre not you really should and also if you take really bad you could talk to your doctor bout perchance getting anti-depressants to try to lift your mood a bit so youll have the spirit to actually focus on getting yourself better :D
you DO have a purpose, remember-when youre depressed your brain LIES to you! it stops you seeing the honourable things even though they are there but once you start to feel better youll be capable of see the good things again
GOOD LUCK!
i could have written like peas in a pod exact thing about 10 years ago. try not to supply in to killing yourself. i be in the same position and i did not annihilate myself (obiously). believe me, things will bet better. beilive in yourself. try reading. get lost within a fantasy world, and its just resembling taking a break from life. best of luck. i really felt equal way as you not to long ago and i finally told my best friend about how i tried to gun down my self and how i was depressed and she gave me the biggest homily ever about how she was my bestfriend and sometimes she feel like that to but honestly i no what your going through and you can get relief but it all starts with you make clear to at least one person and it may be upsetting but just tell the character you trust most and after that you will see everything start to change and your whole enthusiasm will seem happier
Sydney, I just saw one of your other posts and thought what a wonderfully balanced and sensitive person you are. When I looked at your profile I saw almost the mirror image of myself. We are terrifically much alike. I added you to my contacts and then I saw this question you posted.
People resembling yourself are so special. I notice that you follow Buddhism. My guess is that you feel the course you do mostly because of all the hate and cruelty surrounded by the world. This causes me so much stress and sometimes I feel that I can't be in motion on. But the world would be a much darker place without you.
I would recommend you to think about the things that hurt your sense of equality and fairness and try, however little, to make a difference.
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i really felt equal way as you not to long ago and i finally told my best friend about how i tried to gun down my self and how i was depressed and she gave me the biggest homily ever about how she was my bestfriend and sometimes she feel like that to but honestly i no what your going through and you can get relief but it all starts with you make clear to at least one person and it may be upsetting but just tell the character you trust most and after that you will see everything start to change and your whole enthusiasm will seem happier
Death is not the answer you are a fighter are you going to grant up now. Killing yourself is weakness why do it for presently after you have come so far and beat bulimia. Your familial will be lost without you and even though you think they don't fastidiousness they do. Imagine how it will feel for them to see you dead to know you fought so not easy and gave up on the last hurdle, you want to make a contribution up on yourself now. Do they deserve that pain, it may appear an easy answer to kill yourself but mull over of what happens to those who love you.
Things will never run smoothly they never do but you will have positives its not other as bad as you think. My counsel see your doctor and get some help don't conflict alone if your strength is low there is always helping hand there for you to hold so grab one and live your existence don't lose it.
Oh piss off and go read something something like the world. Start with Tibet.